The beginning

It is the fourth day of 2009, and I am starting this second blog. It has been 8 months since I ended my last blog, and I am ready to start anew.

I have been traveling this winter break. Since I rolled off my last project around November, I have noticed something different about myself, and this is a good reason to start my second blog. What really finalizes my decision is the movie Revolutionary Road. I am going to be very dark in my next blog entry on the movie, but for now, let me take a moment to be hopeful.

Change No. 1: I no longer have too many secrets. I used to like keeping secrets, and did not like to share my decisions and my plans. As if sharing them will spoil them, and keeping them serves as a protection around my fragile self-esteem. Not any more. Now everything is out in the open, and I feel liberated. If you do not know the following facts in my life, that is not because I am hiding them, but because you have not asked the right questions. I am preparing a business school application to top 5 schools, just in case I need to ride out the economic downturn back at school. I am a little bit desperate in my personal life, so I am using eHarmony.com. I am doing below average in consulting, but I am learning more every day than others. And I have no complaint of this trade-off, because I am really happy about my personal growth in the past 18 months.

Change No. 2: I have gained new friends and reconnected with my old friends. I felt exhausted at the end of my last blog because I ran out of materials, but now I feel that I have so much to write about. Just wait for my revival of 26 alphabet-friends.

Change No. 3: I have been really happy recently, and I do not know why. Somehow I am content with who I am now, and somehow I just get better insights into people around me. Understanding other people is a great power, and it comes with great responsibility. Always remember that.

Change No. 4: Am I ISTJ Or ENFP? I have always thought that I am an ISTJ, but really? After I started working, I have noticed changes. I am enjoying very much spending time with friends and hating staying at home on weekends. I learn some great skills of thinking in big picture. Sometimes I really feel people (especially fictional characters in movies). I enjoy improvising my travel schedules and enjoy the very unexpected on the road. Either my self-inhibition imposed by my early socialization is thawing, or I just mastered the skills of the other side so well that I can pass freely in both worlds. Either way, it is a good progress.

So here I am, in a new year with a new blog. I think I have changed a lot in the past 8 months, and I hope that my friends have noticed that. I know that some day I will run out of passion (or time) again. And I will have to stop. But at least at this moment, a door is opening. Happy new year.